Sometimes you wake up, having no idea who you are.
Because you have no choice but to follow the paths written by others.
And you try to live up to the expectations of society.

Sometimes, you think that life is just a game
With obstacles and challenges ahead of us.
And if we don't succeed..

...it's the end of the line.

Sometimes you think that you can trust everyone.
And you're forced to learn the hard way
That people aren't always what they seem.

But people change. You can write your own path and follow it.
Screw society and it's expectations.
If life is a game, then play it.
Cause there's no other way to get to the end
And when all the credits pop up..
You'll realise that you've lived a full life.

Because life isn't about the ending. It's about the journey.
And the ending is just a goal that you've set.

I have no idea what I'm typing about anymore.

Don't you just hate people who stare?

I know I am outwardly blessed with my lovely features, complexion and dazzling eyes, and that my aviators are definitely eye candy anytime on a dreary train on the way back home after a long day, but I absolutely went crazy with inertia (inside me) when this old short and frumpy man less than half a metre away from me turned his body a full 180 degrees to stare at me and Jay, and just wouldn't stop.

The thing that absolutely P.O'd me was that she was wearing this pair of absolutely obsolete sunglasses that look fit for a T-Rex, both in design and size. I felt like telling her that if she was going to stare at a child and not shift her gaze after a gazillion years, do it UN-OPENLY !

When does admiring someone (or perhaps just discreetly checking someone out) reach its limit, and when do we know that it has crossed the line of a mere casual glance and is now bordering dangerously on the edge of rudeness?

It is with this unnerving and very unfortunate incident that I have decided to open a new article category in my blog, called simply: Social Etiquette. I feel that the way one carries herself is extremely vital to her overall outward appearance, and the way people instantly perceive her- if for the good or even the worse. It is a commonly overlooked part of our everyday lives that we neglect because we don't need to think about what we're doing; but it is in fact one of the most key ideas of a person's FASHION.

Yes, fashion!

I would just like to end this semi-rant off with a reminder(s) to everyone:

1. Do unto others what others do unto you: If you feel the intense gaze of someone on you in public, don't instantly diss the person in your head as rude and forget completely about the incident. REMIND yourself that you don't want to be in the position of the starer, either, and inflict this mental frustration on others in future.

2. If you somehow end up in this awkward position like me, I would recommend any of the following measures:

- Turn around, stare them straight in the eye and offer a kind, condescending smile as you would do to an immature toddler who didn't know better. Smiling is easy, but practise the condescending bit of it. That packs the punch.

- Ignore them

Does anyone have any similar experiences to share/rant about? Would love to hear what funny stories you guys have to tell, do leave a comment if you do! I'll hear from some of you soon hopefully!

Interviews

So, as you all know, every year, I do an Interview blog. Last year's one is pretty hard to beat (HAHA) so I'm just gonna .. yeah. :)
Last year, my dad went with me, but this year, my mum went with me, so obviously, nothing FUNNY happened, but what about my dad's reaction to my grades?

Scenario:

Vanessa walks home and hears a slam at the back door.
Mum: WHY THE HELL DO I SMELL SMOKE ?! FUCKING. I BET HE WAS FUCKING SMOKING IN THE HOUSE AGAIN ! >:(
Vanessa: :) Heheh >_>
Dad: HELLO ! :D
Mum: HAVE YOU BEEN FUCKING SMOKING AGAIN ?!
Dad: ERR. NO ! OF COURSE NOT ! Umm, HOW COULD YOU, err ACCUSE ME OF THIS.. err, yeah ! I just closed the door ! YEah. >_> <_<
Mum: *Deathstare
Vanessa: Umm, here are my marks.
Dad: D FOR RELIGION ?! Oh who cares, its religion :) B FOR MATH ?! Not very good... *Shakes head.
Vanessa: B is second highest..
Dad: ISSERT ?! OH, VERY GOOD THEN ! HERE ! Have $20 !
Vanessa: THANKS ! :D
Dad: -walks away, muttering- Very very good. yes, very good indeed. :)
Vanessa: O_O

Interviews

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Have you ever had one of those days when you just wake up, realizing that you've wasted your whole life just living your life, following rules and expecting nothing more? Do you ever wake up, losing yourself, not having a clue about who you are anymore because you try to 'fit in' and live up to the expectations? I had one of those moments recently, and I've realised that after years of being a good kid, I have nothing to show for it. Success? What success? I'm expected to be a straight A student by my parents, but I'm sorry. I can't live up to their standards. I'm sorry I'm an average student. I'm sorry that I am who I am. But it's too late now. It'd be too hard to just change yourselves, hoping that people would understand and accept the new you. No, you just have to keep on living the life you started. You have to follow the paths written by others. You have to live up to their expectations. But, after doing all this, you have no idea who you are anymore. To tell you the truth, I don't even know who I am anymore. Can you tell me who I am? What type of a person am I? After years of being a good kid, I have nothing. Not even the slightest clue of who I am.

R4 Problems.

Okay, what the fork ?
I recently got an R4 and for some reason, the games aren't working.
Like, ther WERE nds files, but now they're like...something else.
GOD. Now I have to go get the games off Quyen again.
Mann, this sucks. :(

On the other hand, I can watch movies on my ds now. Yay. :)

Dear Short Stack.

Dear Short Stack,
You mother fucking suck. I hope you fall into a hole that leads to hell where you will be punished for killing people's ears.

You got so lost in your new found fame that you forget about your true fans. The ones that believed you would succeed when no-one else would. The ones that supported you when you were nobodys.
And for that, I'd just like to say:Screw you, Short Stack.

I wanna sew your mouths together so nobody has to hear your voice ever again

Vanessa: -Hears Short Stack on the radio-
OMGOMGOMGOMG KILL ME PLEASE
-gets knife and stabs herself-

If I ever see you in real life, I'm gonna KILL you so I'd never have to see your faces again.
You're fucking losers who can't perform live properly.

Maybe You should LEARN HOW TO PLAY YOUR INSTRUMENTS & SING

From your biggest hater,
x Vanessa

LOL.

Wishes

I'm here, giving you a list of characters..CHARACTERS, NOT PEOPLE who I wish were real. So I could date them.

I'm sick in the head. I know.These are in no particular order, I assure you. .

Edward Cullen from TWILIGHT

He's beautiful. And dangerous. He has an edge about him. But he loves. And he doesn't kill humans for their blood. Super passionate and keeps in control. Most of the time. He notices every little thing around him - the good and the bad. He knows exactly what you're thinking. Strong, silent, savior type. Did I mention he's gorgeous?

Draco Malfoy from THE HARRY POTTER SERIES

He's achingly sexy. But his soul is horrible. You know, he's the kind of person you want to be with so you can fix him. Because in your head, he'd only change for you, not anyone else, just you. He's got the schoolboy thing down. And let's face it, he'd do anything for his family, we all saw that one a hundred miles away. And he has an inner child that comes out to cry to whoever will listen - and not many people will. He has that dangerous edge to him, which makes everything uncertain. He has that coward edge to him, too that makes everything okay because dammit, you're absolutely going to challenge him and you'll win.

Angel from BUFFY THE VAMPIRE SLAYER/ANGEL

He's dark and tortured and sexy. All he wants is to be good. But then when he goes bad, he wants to be the most evil thing ever. But he has a SOUL. And he wants to keep that soul, because it lets him have emotions and lets him love and he'd go to the ends of the Earth for some people. He even ran out into the sun for someone. And when he doesn't have a soul, he's all bad-ass and "I don't care what you say, I'm the BMOC so shut up!"

Steve from SEX AND THE CITY

Everyone deserves a Steve in her life. Yes, he's a little dorky and a whole lot of geeky, but he loves and he cares and he'll go to the ends of the Earth for you. Sure, he may slip from time to time, but you can tell it's a REAL mistake for him and he tries his best to fix what he's done. Because he loves you and no one else. He's the best friend turned boyfriend turned husband who becomes your everything but still gives you the space you need to be your own person.

Raoul, Vicomte de Chagny from THE PHANTOM OF THE OPERA

Okay, he's absolutely the guy you would love to be with you.

He's pretty, wealthy, enjoys theatre, will go against crazy psychos for you, and most likely, he'll croon into your ear.

He remembers things.

He loves you.

He'll go to the depths of the ocean for you.

He loves you.

Did I mention the singing part again?



Snake Jailbird from THE SIMPSONS
Yeah, I'm admitting it. I wish a cartoon character was real. I don't really know why, but Snake is the only Simpsons character I've ever been attracted to. And he's nowhere near being real. He's got this 'bad guy' act, but you know that Deep down...maybe Very deep down, he's a good guy. I don't know why, but I guess I'm kinda attracted to the Bad guy act. Just like Draco, He's the kinda guy you wanna be with to fix him.

Well, there you go. The first 6 guys to pop into my head.I'm sure there will be many more of these as time goes by.

You know, my computer never really got pop ups...until today. I have no idea how this happened, but I'm getting pissed off. Some make sounds, some don't. It gets REALLY annoying when I've got my music pumping and one with sound pops up and scares the shit out of me. :(

I remember owning a computer that always got pop ups. It was SOSOSO annoying, so we bought this baby. -pats computer- :) Sometimes, when my mum takes over my computer and a porn pop up pops up, she looks at me as if I've been watching it. o_o It's like HELLLOOO ?! Why the heck would I watch porn ? Porn is for lowlives who can't score chicks/dudes. :)

You'd think that after many years of blogging pointlessly that I'd think of things to talk about easily, but it's still hard. My brain is VEDY slow for my age and I'm proud of it. :)

Here are some Phobias and they're meanings. Hey, if you're gonna read my blog, you might as well learn something from it !

Arachnophobia- Fear of Spiders
Anthrophobia- Fear of people and social situations
Aerophobia- Fear of flying
Agoraphobia- Fear of open spaces
Claustrophobia- Fear of confined spaces
Emetophobia- Fear of VOMITING
Acrophobia-Fear of heights
Carcinomaphobia- Fear of Cancer
Brontophobia- Fear of thunderstroms
Necrophobia- Fear of death
Japanophobia- Fear of the Japanese.
Microphobia- Fear of small things.
Pedophobia- Fear of children.
Peladophobia- Fear of bald people
Psychophobia- Fear of mind.
Pogonophobia- Fear of beards
Philophobia. Fear of falling in love
Phasmophobia- Fear of ghosts
Philematophobia- Fear of kissing.
Paraskavedekatriaphobia- Fear of Friday the 13th.
Pentheraphobia- Fear of mother-in-law.
Pantophobia- Fear of everything.
Papaphobia- Fear of the Pope.
Oneirogmophobia- Fear of wet dreams.
Medorthophobia- Fear of an erect penis.
Logizomechanophobia- Fear of computers
Hippopotomonstrosesquippedaliophobia- Fear of long words.
Hexakosioihexekontahexaphobia- Fear of the number 666. (Devil's Number)
Haptephobia- Fear of being touched.
Coprastasophobia- Fear of constipation.
Coulrophobia- Fear of clowns
Arachibutyrophobia- Fear of peanut butter sticking to the roof of the mouth.
Didaskaleinophobia- Fear of going to school.

I feel the urge to bitch about my friends :)

I haven't blogged in a while.

JAY
QUYENS2DN.
FAT SHITS 2DN.
Nicknames: Jay, Jayteeh, Spoon Guy, -Nobody, Jac, Jackie, Captain Jac, Super Jay, Little Quyen, Fat Shit.

Dude, I can't even remember this guy's name, bro ! Calling him Jay all the time..SIGH. Like, WTF. Why the heck is this dude so awesome? Who knew that such a GOD exists. Well, everyday we have ZILLIONS of arguments, but this only makes our friendship stronger. Some of her world Famous Quotes include: ‘o_o’ and ‘HELLOOOO!’. I can’t imagine my life without this GG, but she’s all I got. :] Jay is in the ‘Quyens’ group. We mock the real Quyen. Jay is Little Quyen coz she’s the smallest Quyen of all. He is also –Nobody and I’m –Somebody. She’s my dipshit and I love her heaps. I usually bully her. LOL *puts on tough face* because she’s small. She’s also a gaybo who has been there for me through thick and thin. I hate to admit it, But I’m not a very good friend to her. SORRY, LQ. She is small but she is strong at heart without her I would lose a part of me. I LOVE YOU HEAPS LQ.
Almost Rich B**tch. :] Ftw, Bro !

Daffnie
SUPERHEROES2DN.
Nicknames: Super Dee, Super Daffnie, Daff, Daffy.

Okay, So she’s not in the Quyens group, But she’s in MY superhero league ! I once wrote a poem for her, but then accidentally deleted it and now I cant remember what it was. It was a good one too ! Anyways, Daffnie loves to gossip and she likes to be in as many groups as possible. She tried to get in the ‘SHIT’ group thingo but I said no. She wanted to be ‘Shitface’ but I said to her ‘NO, THERES ONLY ONE SHIT AND THAT’S FAT SHIT !’. Daffnie gets teased a lot coz she’s small and she loves Duong, but that’s not her fault.
She’s been one of my closest friends since I met her. I don’t know where I’d be without her. Maybe Korea ? DAMN YOU, I’D BE IN KOREA IF IT WASN’T FOR YOU ! Love you heaps.

Rasmey
‘YOU’RE NOT GIVING ME ENOUGH ROOM !’
Nicknames: Mey Mey, Fatty Melon, Melon, Raspberry, Raz, Raz-a-mey-mey.

This girl, Bro ! Always phucken slapping me ! She’s my sex weed PHUCK I love her soo much, she’s shorter than me and I get bullied by her. We have our high times, we laugh together, we have done stupid things in the past and I don’t regret any moments with her. I will always be there for her even though she bullies me. I love this shorty.

Kim Dinh
GANGSTERS2DN.
‘KIM, LOOK AT ME !’
Nicknames: Kimbo-Bimbo, Star.

LOL, This girl. She always gets in arguments with her friends and I’m the one who helps her recover that friendship. Like a counselor. ROFL. We’ve had our fights and imperfections but we still get through it and remained friends for this long. She is my prized possession without her; I don’t think I can stop swearing LOL. I just wanted to say, even when you go through rough times and I’m not there beside you I will always stand by you.
You are one of my COOLEST friends but I’m cooler of course (H).
FRIENDS FOREVER KIM!

Jemilla.
QUYENS2DN.
Nicknames: Big Quyen, Jemie, S&Lonelyboy lover, GG.

PHUCK YOU, JEMILLA She got me addicted to Gossip Girl. She’s left for Vietnam and Idk what I’m doing without her. I mean, where will I get my Gossip girl now ?! GOSH, JEMILLA, WHY SO SELFISH ! Anyways, She’s Big Quyen coz she’s the tallest out of all of us. She’s the one who created the Quyens. Me and BQ love to tease the real Quyen and blame her for things that is out of her control. ROFL.
Jemilla, have a safe trip to Vietnam and but me a present. xD I LOVE BQ !

Nicole
Roomies :)
Nicknames: Nicolean Dynamite, Cola, Overdue Cola.

Excuse me? Did you just say NAPOLEAN Dynamite? Anyways, Nicole has always been there for me. I’ve never met someone as caring as her. If she was like..102 years old, I’d consider her my second mother. She’s been there for me more than my mother has. Whenever I’m down, she reassures me that everything will be okay and stuff. She sits next to me in most of the subjects we have in school. In maths, I rely on her to bring her text book every lesson and she relys on me to do the work so she can copy (sometimes) Nicole, You’re awesome. How did I ever live without you ?
Nicolean Loves Jacob Black. :]

Note: Not everyone is in this picture.

Hullo. Long time, No blog.
Christmas is almost here, Hallelujah ! Well, my blog today is about a game on the Internet called Habbo.

My friend has recently introduced me to this game and I have to say, it's pretty cool. You can make new games and design your own room. But, in order to buy things to design your room, you have to pay money, yes, that's right REAL MONEY. Sometimes, on special occasions, the Habbo moderators give everyone 5 credits. This happens on days like Easter, Christmas, your birthday and New years day.

Funny :)

Hahahahahahaha.
So the end of the year is getting closer and So, I’m doing another memory blog. This time, I’ll be blogging about conversations I’ve had or heard. Hahaha, It’s pretty funny, take a look.

Vanessa, Jacqueline and Simrin. We’re talking about these two people.
Vanessa: LIKE OMG, YOU KNOW ?!?!
Jacqueline: I reckon !
-Vanessa leaves convo-
Simrin: Care to explain ?
Jacqueline: SHUTTUP ! >:(
:L:L:L

Vanessa and Mary after school. Mary is telling some chick from her school off and Vanessa is just standing there.
Some chick: GOSH ! Why are you such a bitch ?!
Mary: Yeah, well, Why are you fat ?
:L ROFLROFLROFLROFLROFL

Vanessa and Jacqueline are talking about someone they know who has a sister or something named Blanket.
Vanessa: BLANKET !:L
Jay: :L
Vanessa: BLANKET ! :L
Jay: :L BLANKET !
Vanessa: :L
-5 mins later-
Jay: BLANKET ! :L
Vanessa: Get over it.
Jay: >_>
-10 Secs later-
Vanessa: BLANKET ! :L
Jay: :L
:L:L

Vanessa, Nicole, Therese and Hotman are in the tech room bitching about people.
Vanessa: Like, GOSH. They’re such bitches !
Nicole: I reckon, man.
-Therese turns to the bitches who are at the opposite end of the room-
Therese: WHY DON’T YOU SAY IT TO OUR FACES, HOMO.
-Therese turns back around-
Hotman: Are you gonna start a fight ? Can I come?
:L:L

Vanessa and Angelica are reciting Simpsons Quotes.
Angelica: Why do you always lie to me, Bart, Why ?
Vanessa: I didn’t lie to you. I never do.
Angelica: What about that time you told me I didn’t have a fish bowl when your dog ate my fish ? Then why did I have the bowl, Bart ? Why ?
:L

For PC, we had to do these anti-assault thing and so, they chose me to do the poem. >__>
Vanessa: Hmmmm….
Nicole: What have you done so far ?
Vanessa: There once was a bay who was gossiped aboutWherever he went, He was always in doubt.On day he just couldn't take it anymore.The next day, His parents found him on the bathroom Floor. :L
Nicole: LOLOLOLOL ! :L


It’s night, And Vanessa and Jacqueline are talking.
Vanessa: I feel so dead. T_________T"
Jacqueline: Why?
Vanessa: What a day.
Jacqueline: How was the art gallery?
Vanessa: I'll tell you about it.
Vanessa: Ok, first, I went sleep late & Woke up early for tutor. Half dead already. Then ! Art gallery for like 3 hours. 3/4 Dead. come home, whole family is over for dinner. 7/8 dead. And then ! I cant go on the comp all day since I got home cause my baby cousin was sleeping in my comp room ! FULLY DEAD ! T_________T"
Jacqueline: LOLOL.
Vanessa: AND ! I went city
Jacqueline: o: Luckyyyy.
Vanessa: Lol, yeah. I went into Louis Vuiton shop and guess shop…. SO EXPENSIVE ! And pancakes on the rocks ^^
Jacqueline: >;O Jealous. )':
Vanessa: At least your not dead
Jacqueline: Yeah true My mum bought me a Superman t-shirt
Vanessa: I wanted a superman shirt since year 4
Jacqueline: Jayjays They have it there.
Vanessa: I KNOW ! THEY ONLY HAVE GUY ONES !
Jacqueline: No There were girl sizes.
Vanessa: But they're still guy ones
Jacqueline: Pssht In the girls sections
Vanessa: … SHUTTUP.

LOL ! :L

Okay, So I think that’s enough for now, tune in for next blog. :)

OMFG

Are you serious ? It's almost the end of the year and to think that I'm gonna be in year Nine in like... 3 months. o_o
You have GOT TO BE JOKING ! It feels as though it was only yesterday when I first walked into the school grounds for Year 7 Orientation day. I honestly Can't believe it. There are just so many memories that I have from the very first week at High school.

My most memorable memory was the first time I got lost in the school. In case you guys didn't know, My school is very confusing. If you stand in the middle of the courtyard, everything looks the same. So nobody told me I had to remember the room of my homeroom, so on my first day, I got lost on the way to homeroom. How embarrassing ! When I asked the teacher to take me to my homeroom, she asked me "Which class are you in?" And I simply answered "A4" coz that was my homeroom. Instead, the bloody bimbo took me to Art Room #4. ==' By the time I got to homeroom, the fly was waiting for me and everyone laughed at me. :(

Another memory was the number of groups I've sat with. Well, lets start from the beginning. On orientation day, I was a loner (Hate to admit it, but I was) coz nobody from my school went to MMC. So there was this Fat chick who had no friends that started to talk to me. I didn't really like her, but I felt slack to reject her. Plus, she was the only one who talked to me. So on the first day, I made some new friends from my class. NORMAL PEOPLE. And when I went to sit with them, the fat chick like..stalked me and came to sit with us. ==' So in the group was HOTMAN (formerly known as Mary Tran), Nineveh, and SOME OTHER CHICK. Lol. Anyways, soon, Mary and I ditched them to sit with Therese, Janet, Nancy, Kim Dinh and well, everyone else in that group. When I called HOTMAN a bitch as a joke, she got pretty pissed, and so she told them to ignore me and shit. Then I moved to Wendy's group. Their group was VERY violent. Always hitting each other. One day, Wendy called my mum a drug dealer and I got pissed and sat with Belinda, Jacqueline, and HOTMAN for the rest of the day. The very next day, I sat with Phoebe's group. After a few fights, Phoebe left the group and so, we were one member short. Ever since then, I've been sitting with them. :) WOW. What a long list.

There are so many memories that I could list, But I'll leave it at that. Tune in for my next CHRISTMAS blog :)

EMG !

Okay, so my group's doing KK(Kris Kringle) and I am DYING to know who has me ! I want to know what I'm getting ! GOSH ! So I kinda know what to get for my KK, but not so sure if it's within the price range...
Just wondering, but do things get MORE expensive during christmas and then cheap at the Christmas sales ? If so, Why can't we wait till after the holidays or meet up somewhere AFTER Christmas to give our presents? I'm not being a cheapass, just that if that was the case, then people would get BETTER presents at a CHEAPER price.

God pressies+ CHEAP= (Y).

That's all for today, not very long, I know, but yeah. :)

Gossip Girl

I know I haven't been blogging in a while. I've been kinda busy with school and stuff. Wait, How many people even read this ?! Anyway, My topic for this blog is the Fake Gossip Girl Website. If you're from MMC, You should know that someone is trying to be Gossip Girl, but is failing miserably. It's obvious that most people don't even know what Gossip Girl is, therefore not sending anything that's "Juicy Gossip". There there, Gossip Girls, I'm sure the Real Gossip Girl will help you if you ask nicely.

Yeah, Kinda boring blog today, I know. But hey ! It's the best I can do in Five Minutes ! :)

Yo Mama !

Yo mama so fat when she tripped over on 4th Ave, she landed on 12th
Yo mama so fat she had to go to Sea World to get baptized
Yo mama so fat the highway patrol made her wear "Caution! Wide Turn"
Yo mama so fat i ran a mile..around her
Yo mama so fat her legs is like spoiled milk - white & chunky!
Yo mama so fat she wakes up in sections!
Yo mama so fat she rolled over 4 quarters and it made a dollar!
Yo mama so fat she got hit by a parked car!
Yo mama so fat sets off car alarms when she runs.
Yo mama so fat that she would have been in E.T., but when she rode the bike across the moon, she caused an eclipse.
Yo mama so stupid she got locked in a grocery store and starved!
Yo mama so stupid she walked around a circle looking for the corner!
Yo mama so stupid that she tried to put M&M's in alphabetical order!
Yo mama so stupid she sat on the TV and watched the couch
Yo mama so stupid that she sold the car for gas money.
Yo mama so stupid she took a ruler to bed to see how long she slept.
Yo mama so stupid she took a spoon to the superbowl.
Yo mama so stupid that she thought Boyz II Men was a day care center.
Yo mama so stupid she hears it's chilly outside so she gets a bowl.
Yo mama so stupid she sold the house to pay the mortgage.
Yo mama so stupid she tried to steal a free sample.

Bands

SLIPKNOT !
Ok, Well thanks to Nicole and Angelica, I have discovered a new Heavy metal/ Death metal band. The name is.. SLIPKNOT!!! Their best song is probably Psychosocial. The band consists of 9 people who Always wear masks. I, For one, LOVE their masks, their songs and their voices, but some people don’t. I mean, what is wrong with them ?! If I ever see one of their masks at the shops, I’d buy it, Regardless about the price Yeah, I’m a big Fan.

SHORT STACK !
Short Stack. There’s nothing to say. They rock and they know it. Short Stack is a rock band and they..ROCK! Their songs include Drop Dead Gorgeous, Princess and the well known Shimmy A Go Go. I’ve known them since they were 16; Yes, That’s right, That’s before they were famous. They started in Sydney and are new to the music industry.I LOVE many other bands, but I’ll write about them another day.